Just Wanna Let You Know..~

Okay, so I just want to warn you guys that I'm on the edge right now. To the point where this fanbase just makes me wanna quit. Not end being a fan of the boys, but being a directioner.

But I won't. Of course not. It's just that... Some fans are just really dumb and everything is starting to get less... fun. What happened to being there for the boys and music?!

It's weird because recently, I've had a change in perspective overall on this 1D thing. Like for starters, I was thinking of deleting this blog. But I don't think I am anytime soon.

Also, I look back at really old blog posts and.. omg. I don't neccessarily disagree with what I have to say, but I sound like the kind of people I hate right now. And I won't delete it because it's my past and I'm not going to act fake, like I wasn't one before, but still. I'm glad I've grown from that stage.

So, I've started on this blog post that I'll hopefully be releasing soon this week. It's a very long one and states my opinions on all these stupid rumors. I usually would do a very VERY toned-down type of thing, addressing just one topic, but I mushed all the crazy ones together and addressed EACH of them in detail.

Yeah, I guess it might and can get a little repetitive, but when you're as fired up as me right now, you don't really care of writing skills and crap. I just want my message to get out there.

I'll probably still be posting other things, maybe. But I'll be primarily working on this.

If you want to get an idea of how long and descriptive this will be, the fact that I have to work on it for several days is a big deal. I seriously write all my blog posts in one sitting. So this will be huge. But I really don't want to address these rumors ever again; I'm laying it all on the table.

My goal is to have it out before next week is over, or at least before 'Take Me Home' will be released. I will be having a countdown at one of the side panels <--- or ---> at the one week mark to November 13th! :)

#LittleThingsChallenge

So if you haven't heard of the #LittleThingsChallenge, it's started obviously from 1D's new song, 'Little Things'. You can watch this on the previous blog post!

Anyway, the challenge is to write some insecurities about yourself that you may hate. And the point of this isn't to make yourself feel bad, or show the world how imperfect you are; so many people have taken part in this challenge, and THAT shows A) how many active directioners are, B) how insecure people can get, and C) how WAY similar we all are as humans to have insecurities.

In addition to this, as to not make this depressing, you must write some things about yourself that you love. Could be anything. And don't worry about boasting. At this point, loving yourself is the best thing you can do.

And if you want, which I will actively try to do, is to find something beautiful in my day, whether it be an act of kindness, a song, quotes, nature, etc. I will create a page linked to the right side of this blog soon to write all my 'Little Things' in. So watch out for that!

If it's something you're interested in doing, I highly encourage you to.

Because I'm 100% positive that someone out there really thinks you're beautiful... It's true, you are. And all the things about you that you hate.. well, it'll be someone's favorite thing about you.

Okay, so I guess I'll start up with mine! And yeah, I was a bit hesitant to post this because I know a couple of people who follow this blog so kinda awkward there, but I think all you directioners with twitters that I've gotten to know might find this helpful in their situation. I even heard that the challenge saved this one girl's life as she saw what everyone goes through, especially when addressing what you 'hate' about yourself.

That's the power of five very talented guys who sing with passion, and one buddy of theirs with the amazing skill of writing.

Alrighty, here it goes...

I've got to admit that I have multiple insecurities. Silly ones, maybe.

One of them is how short my legs are. Because I'm short, they're short. Not much explanation there haha.

Another is probably my stomach/thighs. That general area is just in need to change. Absolutely hate them.

And that leads to my weight. I've got a low metabolism, so I can pretty much gain 102043049342 pounds overnight. Before high school, I never really watched what I ate; I wasn't aware. But as I started going to the gym and working out, I found that I started to look at calorie count, carbs, trans fat, etc. It's like an addiction. And I've lost some weight, but not to the point where I'm happy with myself. Not quite yet.

Those three are my main ones. Others are just like, how dumb I can get, how my laugh is REALLY loud it's embarrassing, and stuff like that. And like, my face in general. I feel like I'm always making such weird faces all the time.

I kinda dislike it when people call me 'cute' and all. Don't get me wrong, it's nice of you, but I've been getting told that more and more and I just feel like it's now people's way of saying "Oh, you're a wittle bitty girl, so innocent and young." And it's probably true. But I don't really see how that's cute, to be honest. It isn't my 'humor' either. I don't make people laugh because of my jokes. People laugh at me for eating in class and being stupid. At this point, the usual thing to say is "SORRY I'M NOT PERFECT. And sorry I'm hungry all the damn time. Not my fault!" ...but I'm not even going to apologize for something about me. Not even going to say sorry. I've accepted it, you need to also. It's funny the first time, get over yourself.

And for my friends, if you happen to read this, don't think it's you. I wouldn't write mean stuff about you <3 When we laugh at me, it's actually funny, ya know?

And that concludes my insecurities. On to my favorite things about me -

So I found that this list is a bit longer than my insecurities. Some girls would think that it's because I'm not aware of them, but I am. I've just learned to accept and love them.

For example, my cheeks. They're chubby and rosy and stuff, but whatever. I used to hate them and be conscious of them, but one day, I was like "Screw it." and now I love them! Weird, huh? Anything like that happen to you?

Another thing I love is kinda my personality. I kinda love my personality. My friend Megan asked me why I take crap from people, like when they laugh at me, and it only dawned on me then that I don't really care. I seriously don't. Talk about my insecurities behind my back, it's fine with me. You know they're there. I know they're there. What's the big deal? You point them out as if I don't already see them. BUT I DO. Of course, words hurt from time to time, but I really try not to let it get to me. And fortunately, for the most part, they don't.

I love how short I am. Yeah, I sorta mentioned it in my insecurities, it's a love/hate relationship. But it's nice to be short in many ways. Like one thing is that I don't have to worry about height differences with guys. It's great, really. But not like it matters right now, as there are no guys hangin' around hahaha.

Aaaand I love how easily I smile. I don't have a great smile, but I love it nevertheless. I can smile at anything. I found that this can actually be a struggle for some people, so I'm thankful I can smile so easy, and smile so real.

So this concludes my blog post! Hope you guys like it, and I REALLY REALLY REALLY do encourage you to do so. Please DM me, comment below, etc. if you had written one, because I'd love to read it <3

I'd also like to say I do love 'Little Things' so much to the point where (I was talking to my friend with this earlier) that I'd get a quote from the song tattooed on me. Not a huge one, but a tiny one, maybe circling around a heart or something. Long-term thing. And I'd also want it to be played at my wedding as the slow song. :)

I learned I REALLY needed to hear the song and its lyrics and meanings. Basically, 'Little Things' was the original Challenge as it listed insecurities of this girl. But as you've quickly learned, they are things a guy would truly love endlessly. Because it's a part of you, they add up to you, and he loves YOU.

Splitsville My Ass

My sources have not confirmed if Payzer had broken up or not. So not much to say right now. Lol kidding. Brace yourselves.

But I swear my life is over if they do. They were THE couple. They had the real love I see evolving into marriage. If I could have a boyfriend, I'd hope we'd be just like Liam and Dani.

I can't say it isn't bothering me even if I don't believe a word. Just reading the 87 articles on the same news (some frazzled and aren't quite up-to-par with what others are reporting) makes me feel sick. What if? WHAT IF. I can't, this can't happen. Not to them. These rumors.... I can't with them.

I'm sorry, I just really need to rant, in addition to yesterday's. I've been worried ever since I first found out, but what set me off was my mom just 5 minutes ago. She comes into my room and looks at my 1D wall and points at Liam. That's it. She knows I'd know already.

So I basically start getting aggrevated and upset even more than I already was and took it on this blog again. Sorry.

NEITHER OF THEM CONFIRMED THE SPILT. OMG.

People *cough cough* PAPZ *cough* BLOGS *cough* PEOPLE-WHO-REPORT-ON-1D-BUT-DONT-KNOW-A-FREAKING-THING-ABOUT-THEM *cough cough* should just keep their mouths shut. It's starting to piss Directioners off.

It's frustrating to see all this crap on the internet and not knowing if it's true or not. Like, if you hear rumors about your best friend and that she broke up with her boyfriend but you don't have a class with her so you can't confirm nor deny the rumors..... IT SUCKS.

Plus, I can write better articles than these people. I'm sorry, but to fully understand 1D drama - directioners only know that. Seriously. The reporters are all the 40 years old. Like, what are you doing. You have no idea what's going on.

These articles are totally not what Liam sounds like. They're all like "Payne blames fame!" ......

Like really. Liam. No. Stop. He isn't like that. He wouldn't blame his fame - aka his popularity with his fans, WHO HE LOVES - for the breakup, IF IT EVEN HAPPENED.

These reporters have no idea that directioners LOVE and ADORE Danielle. I'm close friends with alot of directioners (from all over the world, mind you) who I haven't met, and we fangirl ALL the time about how amazing Dani is and how Payzer should just get married.

It's to the point where if you don't at least respect Danielle, you are not a true fan. Honestly, it's down to that.

Those people think the FANS did this. How WE got in between them.

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I cannot express my feelings enough, but GIFs are close. And I love this one so.

Yeah. I've ranted enough, for now at least. I JUST NEED TO FOLLOW UP THAT NO, IF IT ISN'T OBVIOUS, THE FANS ARE DEFINITELY NOT THE REASON. We are supportive af. Don't think we're so bad.

Whew.... You can bet I'll post more rants, especially if these rumors won't go away. AND if they are denied/confirmed, YES I WILL POST.

I'm scared nonetheless. There's still a possibility. But I'm praying it won't be true. I love Payzer too much, Liam deserves to be happy. If anyone deserves to be happy, it truly is Liam Payne. And Dani provides a huge chunk of that.

Heck, for all we know, this is just the plan to cover up something. OMG LIAM IS PROPOSING TO DANI ISN'T HE. PLOT FREAKING TWIST, ya'll. Goodnight.x

This Can't Be Happening

What. The. Actual. Fuck.

This isn't right.

APPARANTLY, LIAM AND DANI SPLIT.

I doubt this is true. Like c'mon.

A source told the Daily Mirror newspaper: 'They have split in the last few days because it has been more and more difficult to keep the relationship going with Liam spending more and more time away. He has hardly been able to see Danielle in recent months and the band have a world tour next year so it was only going to get harder. They ended things but Liam hopes they have left on good terms. She was the first real love of his life.'

I'M CALLING BULLSHIT ON THIS ONE. LIKE REALLY. A 'SOURCE'? AND THEY DON'T EVEN USE GOOD VOCABULARY AND GRAMMER IN THIS.

Plus, Daily Mirror isn't a trusted site.

THEN I found this on another website:

A source said: “It was getting impossible to keep it going. They were apart so much and everything that was being said to Danielle on Twitter was getting to her.
"They both still care for each other and will remain friends, but it all just got too much."

This crap is almost making me laugh. I don't believe a word. I just can't believe rumors are so hardcore these days.

The only 'evidence' I could find is that Liam said 'babe' to numerous amount of girls more than usual, but British guys say that ALL THE FREAKING TIME. So that doesn't even count.

There's no weird tweets from Dani either. This definitely cannot be happening.

I won't believe one damn word anyone says unless it's from Liam or Danielle. Period. I refuse to even read anymore sickening articles. I won't even include Payzer pictures in this blog post because it'll just make this more of an issue. I'm just calling out the media on this. Stop with the BS, you're ruining lives.

Sorry I exploded. I just can't stand these people messing with the boys. Sorry for the language too. It's neccessary for me though. Like seriously. CMON PAPZ

There's also those dumb rumors about Zayn and a certain phone call, cheating on Perrie, etc.... again, GET WITH THE PROGRAM. Ugh. I guess I'll address this now. Just gotta get it all outta my system.

Basically, there's this recorded call of Zayn calling these girls to meet him and Harry up in the hotel room.

Honestly, I don't really doubt it's true. But I really don't think Zayn would cheat, especially if Perrie was seen with 1D a few days ago, after this whole thing.

Anyway, it's probably a hook-up for Harry. He's a teenage boy, he could do whatever he wants.

Zayn also used a code name for them, which happened to be their stylist's name Crystabel Riley, I think. I'm not sure... I'm too lazy to look up an article about this. I just know about it from my sources. Plus I heard it on the tape, which is everywhere.

DJ Malik goes on to explain how Harry can't wait, come soon, blah blah blah.

I don't even know anymore. I don't know if I think it's legit. For all we know, since those kinda recordings are iffy, they could've found someone that sounded exactly like Zayn and just recorded it to blow it up on him. Especially since the girls sounded distant and not exactly matching with the quality of Zayn's.

Whatever. Again, I'm not believing anything 'til someone trustworthy confirms.

And it sure as heck not the 'Daily Mirror'. OMG. Pissed me off today.