Hiatus

If you haven't guessed already by my obvious lack of posting, I won't be writing on this blog much anymore. This year, I'm refocusing and re-evaluating my priorities.

This doesn't mean I won't write, period. Maybe I'll come back from time-to-time to chat it up with you guys and share some things with you.

I actually opened up a new blog, but it isn't that interesting. It's just me and my personal reflections on my life, my decisions, and my God. But if you'd like to view it and/or you're into that kinda thing, you can open that here. Note that I just started it today. The reason for this is that I would still be able to do what I love to do - write - but mold that into something that I can direct towards myself.

I will be back on sometime this year, I'm hoping during the summer. So stay tuned for that! xx

NOTE: This does not make me less of a directioner, nor am I stopping my love for the boys. I just can't keep up with all their news, especially since most of you probably follow them closely as well. So, if you haven't already, follow the boys on twitter to keep yourself up-to-date! Sorry I must leave, I just have to sort myself out and I can't do that with this blog, really. I will 100% for sure be back to post about my experience going to the One Direction concert in July :)

If I wasnt underage and into breaking laws you might think Im somehow intoxicated but Im not Im feeding off of directioner drama so no worries alright

Give me a break---

We're currently in the middle of Haylor drama, but can I just say thIS IS WHY I LOVE BEING A NIALL GIRL WE HAVE NO DRAMA ASDFGJKL FREEEEE MOFOS WOOOOO ALL WE WORRY ABOUT IS NIALL DRINKING TOO MUCH OR WEARING HIS MANKINI IN PUBLIC OR CHOOSING WHAT RESTAURANT HE GOES TO oR HIM SLEEPING IN TOO LATE OR HIS BAD KNEE ACTING UP OKAy

And I saw this insta post where they said "Just because this Haylor drama is happening doesnt mean you can just BECOME a Niall girl, you have to earn your way in. Like, with real obstacles and fire breathing dragons. Yeah." I agree, you have to earn your way in but if you make it welcOME TO THE FAMILY YALL WHERE WE HAVE NO WORRIES BUT JUST WAITING FOR HIS BRACES TO COME OFF OR CRYING CUZ HE SLICED HIS FINGER ACCIDNRTHLY OR NOT FINDIBG ANY FOOD

But Im guessing that Harry girls - bless your hearts ladies - will be forever Harry girls. I respect that, but dont be mackin on my irish unless you really mean it.

I wouldnt blame you. Niall is some crazy hot human being like he should be tamed

But I dont blame you if you stay with Harry actually I encourage it because 1) Haylor wont last and 2) more Niall for me 3) Haz is oshsorchaldjakwfoshjwocsbx I mean dos curlz k

Um yeah its late and I should sleep. I would post the Haylor pics but like I'm lazy and maybe a liiiiiiittle sleepy so HAppy New Years everyone

***Edit: I found the pictuer of the insta post its attached to this blog post but idk if itll show up cuz im not postig from the internet web right now so this might turn out a litfle funky lolololololo

Fanfic - Update

So I've been getting some suggestions but I thought one up myself that kinda fit best..

"She's Not Afraid"

...as in, their song. Since it kinda mirrors it. I guess I'll base the story off of it a little :) Not really though lol

And I've got some names, whatcha think?

Leah - but we'd call her Lee, maybe...

Aisling - pronounced Ash-ling... suggestions for her nickname?

Dahlia - pronounced Doll-ia I believe

Veronica - but we'd shorten it to Ronni or something

Sydelle - yeah, I'd need another nickname suggestion


Okay I'm bad with names. Don't make fun of meeee. Just please lemme know what you think!

Fanfic?

So yeah, I've been writing a fanfic recently - no it's not dirty - and I was wondering if you guys would help me find a title for my story?

I have the summary down. I just need the main girl's name and the title.

It's a work in progress okay. I just had a dream of this and I just had to write it down, then it evolved into a story.

If you have any suggestions about it, I can take both bad and good feedback :)

And yeah the boys will be in it, I just needa think of how to incorporate it in the story.

I feel like this'll be a failure LOL but this is more for me so who gives a flying

But for sure the main guy will be one of the five boys.

Thanks guys! x

Here's the summary to help you guys decide on the title & the girl's name:

People tell you that you can’t run away from your problems.

I did.

You could say I never was the best daughter. My family was rich but barely paid attention to me. What was I supposed to do? I got in trouble – sleeping around, sneaking out at 3 am, coming home drunk, talking back to my teachers, getting into fights, that whole deal. Whatever got my parents’ attention. It never came the way I wanted it to, though.

What did me was being dumped by someone you actually thought you’d marry… It’s so naïve and stupid, I can’t believe I felt that way. and devoted my love to him. He was a big part of making me the badass I thought I was. He made me into this monster that made old people cringe whenever they see me.

I got tired of keeping it up and I wanted to change. I hated what he’s done to me.

I couldn’t stay in my town where I could see the bastard’s face every day. Everyone also knew me as someone who couldn’t control herself, who was a reckless, confused child. I needed to go far away. I’m done with love. And no way was I going to stay there and continue to feel sad for myself.

I was scared, honestly. Not of the big city that was soon to be nearby, or all the foreign people I'd meet, or that I wasn’t gonna find any friends. I was maybe a little bit scared of falling in love. I just wanted to start over fresh, was that too much to ask for?

So there I was, sitting at Gate 5 waiting for my flight to Hampstead, UK. Waiting for my life to finally begin.  Thinking: no drama, no love, no distractions.

That plan kinda failed the moment I met _______________________.

The Sweetest

I'm honestly praying super hard that -

A. I'll even get the opportunity like this^
B. I'll be calm and collective like these really lovely girls. You can tell Niall likes just talking to them.
C. I would know the hotel they'd be at when they come here for a concert.

Shut up, it's alot to ask for but it's a wish okay



And this. This - ugh. I give up going to the airport. Like what am I supposed to do with my life. I wish fans would get calmer. I mean I guess you can't control crying but screaming? Really? When he's RIGHT there? Even I know I won't do that. Cry I might but scream in their faces - no thanks.

My Final Opinion on Haylor

So basically after thinking things through, I'd like to voice out that I do not ship #haylor.

Honestly, it's just cuz I think it's bullshit.

But you know, I think there is a bit of love-lust in the relationship.

BUT WAIT HEAR ME OUT!

Taylor isn't the bad guy; yeah she's dated a lot of guys and wrote songs about them, but maybe that's just her. You know we all have that one friend who just NEEDS to be in a relationship all the time. Is she/he neccessarily bad? Nope.

And true, Haz is a womanizer; it's no secret. But I feel as if the fanbase itself made Harry seem more of a manwhore than he really is (not saying he isn't one though lol). He isn't the bad guy either. Sure he's been spotted with alot of girls, but how many have actually been seen holding his hand? Not that many.

No doubt they're gettin' it in. And no doubt it's for publicity. But I'm one of those stupid fans who end up supporting them no matter what. I don't ship it though.

That's the difference. I'm not saying - in fact I disagree - when 'fans' say that one isn't a true fan if you don't support all that they do. No. The boys are human, are you insane? Get yourself checked because honey, if 1D will stick around for some time, they'll be in a load of shit more often than not, especially in the future.

So two days ago I wanted to find one of those cute little videos that would show my POV, you know, with the slideshow of pictures and stuff. But came across this -





...ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE. Love this. She has a really good voice too! But listen to the lyrics; basically, that's what I believe. It saddens me that I only saw this on Saturday - hey, I don't have a tumblr. I wish I saw it sooner!

So yeah. Awkward now because I have nothing else to say.

Just know that though I don't ship Haylor, I still adore Taylor Swift, she's one of my favorite artists in the music industry today.

And of course, I fully 100000000000000000% support Harry.

#SupportthemseparatelybutnottogetherbecauseHaylorjustisntrightokay.

Haylor At Jingle Ball

Yeah, you know when we heard this morning that the boys headed off to the UK for Jingle Ball and Harry wasn't on the plane? And then we found out that him and Swift got a private jet to go there together, a bit later?

Then there was the question "Is Taylor going to be at Jingle Ball?"

So basically, I found a video uploaded not to long ago, found it before it went viral.

And okay I still don't have my opinion yet about Haylor but srs guys, you can't NOT fangirl over this. It's way too adorable.

Oh and also, don't tell me that Taylor's 'trying too hard' in this. She's seriously the awkward-est person ever and she's just like that. How do I know this? I just do. Listen to her songs lol she's just adorable like that. And during award shows, when an artist is performing, you know how they zoom into the audience? Yeah, Taylor's dancing like that. And that's on national, international TV.

So yeah, here it is! And I think Harry's into it, can't really tell. I think at 0:41-0:50-ish he's like doing what Taylor's doing. And at 0:49 you can see he puts his hands down soo....

Sorry, I can't definitely analyse it, filmer can't focus for shit. But hey, if that was me, I don't even think I'd remember to record it. I'd be too emotionally distressed. So props to her, thanks for the video!